Kalyana Mitra
This is one word that I learnt from the Buddhist Camp that I attended after Christmas last year. It means spiritual friendship. For those who doesn't really get what is so spiritual about a spiritual friendship, I don't know too much either.
The things that a guy needs? Well, maybe not too safe for me to generalize here. Lets just say what I need.Not too much most of the time? Somebody who will be there every time - somebody who always TRULY understands.
I guess at different points of time in my life, "understand" would mean different things at different times.
I have come to learn an old truth that I was once privileged to know for the first time about 4 years back - humans are humans.
Sometimes I expect others to behave like God and to understand me like God would. I make them feel helpless, small, and stupid.
Sometimes I expect others to behave like God and to understand me like God would. I fall into delusion and loneliness - the kind of loneliness deep inside, a little hard to describe.
This is a hard lesson to learn for me who once called Jesus his best friend since Jesus was more or less his only friend. Then somehow lived in a manner that slowly pushed Jesus aside.
When the skies turn dark and the sun sets
The children go home, others get lost further into the darkness
I'm glad that now - in the midst of my experience of a deep sense of loneliness, I have a home to go to. Both my physical house with my biological parents - and also my knees in my heart with my Heavenly Father.
The bad thing is I am not feeling too well. The good thing is I am feeling not too well. Whatever that leads me home must be good, otherwise I would rather a bad thing happen. The skies are dark, wherever my friends go, I guess it is safest that I go home - maybe we will play again some other day before the skies grow dark.
I need security that ... is real
The things that a guy needs? Well, maybe not too safe for me to generalize here. Lets just say what I need.Not too much most of the time? Somebody who will be there every time - somebody who always TRULY understands.
I guess at different points of time in my life, "understand" would mean different things at different times.
I have come to learn an old truth that I was once privileged to know for the first time about 4 years back - humans are humans.
Sometimes I expect others to behave like God and to understand me like God would. I make them feel helpless, small, and stupid.
Sometimes I expect others to behave like God and to understand me like God would. I fall into delusion and loneliness - the kind of loneliness deep inside, a little hard to describe.
This is a hard lesson to learn for me who once called Jesus his best friend since Jesus was more or less his only friend. Then somehow lived in a manner that slowly pushed Jesus aside.
When the skies turn dark and the sun sets
The children go home, others get lost further into the darkness
What a Friend We Have in Jesus
What a friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
all because we do not carry
everything to God in prayer.
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy laden,
cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In his arms he'll take and shield thee;
thou wilt find a solace there.
I'm glad that now - in the midst of my experience of a deep sense of loneliness, I have a home to go to. Both my physical house with my biological parents - and also my knees in my heart with my Heavenly Father.
The bad thing is I am not feeling too well. The good thing is I am feeling not too well. Whatever that leads me home must be good, otherwise I would rather a bad thing happen. The skies are dark, wherever my friends go, I guess it is safest that I go home - maybe we will play again some other day before the skies grow dark.
I need security that ... is real
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